from 4chan

/b/....have you ever stared into forever. Seen...beyond. I was once a god. I returned to humanity and now, I know that I was meant to be neither god nor man. I was looking at the walls today. They never change. I masturbated several times and ate my own seed. The millions of potential children....my world...my army. I copulated with myself and ate them. They are in heaven now. I masturbated many times today. There is an illusion....a masked and skewed reality. People do not know that I was a god. And I was. And now I am not. So I sit, I masturbate, and when I dwell with the othermen....they remain unaware. The sum of my existence is masturbation. When I was a god, I traveled the universe. As a man, I masturbate.

I will not give the pretense of having the answers for the world. The world has no questions. As a man, like all man, I eat, I drink, I shit, I masturbate, occasionaly I fornicate with a human female, and one day, as a man I shall die. I do not fear it however, as during my godhood I saw that hell was not so horrid nor heaven so graceful. I also looked at the blades of grass and clouds in the sky. These are the sum of another gods masturbation. Therefore, the seed that I consume is myself destroy my own world. I am a callous and uncaring god. One day, the other God will recant his masturbation and destroy the world. I will not be here to see that, neither will you.

I was asked the other day by a person I knew to be human. He asked me "why must we be here if we are to die?" I told him....you are the sum of another god's masturbation. It was a form of self meditation and relief. He needed to ejaculate. You are but the descendant of ancient cum. You are here....because of masturbation. We masturbated jointly ....it was not a gay experience. I then asked him to leave because the masturbation had lost its meaning. All meaning. I am done doing favors for the humans. I never did favors for other gods, so why humans?

I will now meditate.....staring at the walls. Realizing that I AM cool enough to be Hikikomori...but I can not revert to that...for I relinquished my godhood. When I recharge, I shall masturbate once more.

Another question I am asked: "What was it like being a god?" It was not very exciting. I attained all of the world's knowledge and was still found wanting. I traveled to other worlds. Other realities. I waded through the murkiest side of Hell...both flaming and frigid. I saw the pretentiousness of heaven and tired of it. Eternity...eternity is punishment in and of itself. To be divine is to be inhuman. I was chagrin with my own divinity.

I would not recommend godhood if you are not ready.



I am not Hotaru. Hotaru is merely and avatar through which I worship my former godhood.

She represents silence. She is perfect. I am imperfect as a man and fair as a god.

I was not a good or benevolent god. I mass murder my own semen with every ejaculation. Hotaru is also a saint a mother superior through which I focus my masturbation.

This is me. This is not a fictional account of godhood.

I came to /b/ once before. As a newman I come here, because this is where there are harlots and thieves. I will no longer appeal to the lofty and comfortable. I come to the diseased of mind and body.

I am not a messiah however, neither is Hotaru. We both know this.

I shall masturbate once more with this post. I have masturbated 3 times in the last 30 minutes.

I can not leave. It is not homosexual to eat one's own cum It is a form of Autophagy. I eat my cum because I am destroying my own world and consuming my own creations.

Much like the other gods will do. My cum did not traverse time. I did. I did and I have done it but no longer. I am NOT a god anymore. I am man not unlike you. But forever changed by the burden of godhood.

I am not bosnian. Nor even serbian. I do not share my words with a sentiment of lament. I also do not come to you in the spirit of aid or assistance. I come to you as an observer as one who went beyond the bridge of humanity and godhood.

One minute I am a normal man, listening to Sabbath and smoking Jimson weed and the next I am on the other side of the stars where the blackest space contains the reddest stars. It was not glorious.

Hotaru is but a vessel for me. No. I am a vessel for Hotaru. She was there in Heaven. She suckled my genitals. She ate my cum. We then snowballed and became one. I then separated from her. When I awoke a man. I fornicated with a human female. She was not perfect like Hotaru. She had blemish. I regret the sex with her. The human.